Tropicana Hana

My cell phone was road kill. I found it in peices all over the mall parking lot. And so my mother ordered the new one on line since the people at the cingular store are oblivious and unhelpfull and all that… so when will my friggen phone come? Two weeks from now? I’m so impatient, and depressed not having a phone. LIFE is dull dull dull when there is no one to call.

She’s from Long Island! Isn’t that reason enough?

I think my future husband and I are divorcing before we are even married.

He won’t accept me the way I am. He recently reconected with god so expects me to connect with god. And it’s not that easy!

Also he prays a lot and I think he’s been using it as an excuse to avoid me. Everytime I talk to him he is either praying or about to go to prayer.

He wants me to accept god in my heart that way I’ll make a good wife and mother because that is a woman’s purpose.

OUCH!!! bitch slap in my womanhood

Then he goes and insults all working mothers being bad neglectful parents- my mother included – and me he said “Well your mother worked your whole life and look how you turned” (said in a rather negative tone.)

Okay so I want my future husband to

1. love me for me (whether I be agnostic or buddhist or muslim or satanist – it shouldn’t make a difference)

2. Respect me. I wasn’t raised to simply be ‘a mother and a wife’.

3. Take a maternity leave. Yay for dad’s who help raise their offspring.

I don’t like him I love him so much!!!!!

I went on a date. It ended in a kiss. Ooooh

Because she wants to be a mermaid, among so many other really fabulous goals.

My mom said “Your dad and I are seperating”

surprise surprise.

This will throw my once very comfortable suburban life for a loop (and out of the suburbs) and tear my life into two as well. It’s been one month shy of 19 years, I have weel established relationships with both my parents and the fact that the they might they are individuals, yes, but they are ‘mom and dad’ and I go to them for everything and together we always discuss everything. Now what??

I support my mom’s decision. I’m not too heart broken by it, more heart broken because my dad he is cruel. They fight everyday. My dad is just mean in general he says things and I think even I’d divorce him! (I remember being in the car telling my mom “Mommy I think you should divorce daddy he’s so mean, if you do can we move to florida?” when I was about 9 because all I cared about was moving to florida and I swear, I would’ve killed someone to move there!)

My mom told me recently how she can’t divorce him because he’s sick, what would he do? She said I just have to put up with everything he throws at me because he’s so ill.

My dad doesn’t give my mother credit, or appreciate anything she does. But without her he’d not be here. He has at least 98 doctors…. who makes all the appointments for him? Who gets him connection in the best hospitals? Who covers him under her flawless health insurance (such kind so rare to come by)?

So I don’t know what my dad will do without her. I’m very worried for him now.

We were going to move to our dream home. Charelston, SC.

Now my mom will move there, my dad will stay up here, I will __ live in my non-existant car. Convince dad to set me up with a NY apartment. Go back and fourth. Get myself back into a college away from home. try anything to get my life back together is what I should do.

wen we moved to NY our home was being worked on so my sisters and brother and me stayed with her. We stayed up late nights and danced and sang around to bollywood and made up dance routines to music and she dressed us up because she has so much cloths. We tried to teach he how to rolle blade and went to the park during the days. So fun!

The first time I saw him was when I was 10 and my mother made me watch Pride and Prejudice on A&E, and that part where he is walking out of the lake… I fell in love instantaneously.

I love you colin!!

I can’t say I’ve seen a bad film with him in it. He always plays the charming charismatic british men, very heart warming too. I love his performances.